Lately when I have been left with my thoughts, I keep feeling a bit overwhelmed. Let me be a bit more honest: this is a fleeting thought I catch myself feeling almost daily. I live in this world full of opportunity & success practically everywhere! I live in a place where it is so ridiculously easy to start your own business, and I have yet to create my own Etsy shop. I think about all the things I want to create. I see myself in the future and what I want to be doing. The only problem is the fact that every day, I dream up this new big, bright idea of what I want to do with myself. I think part of this feeling of being overwhelmed is stemmed from the fact that I create who I am. In a weird sense I am a little scared by that. I am in charge, and I am responsible of where I end up. I am in charge of my success: which is super great, but scary too. I think I am flooded with so many ideals of myself in my mind, that I am not sure where to go or what path to take. I look up to people who step forward and do something. They create a blog, an Etsy shop, heck I even ran into someone who started their own boutique and it has become a crazy success. I love those stories because they went out and did what they wanted to do, so they could become who they wanted to become (at least I hope that’s why they did that).
I guess I feel like there are 10 different paths to who I could be in 5 years, I don’t know which one to choose, and because of that I haven’t chosen any of them. Now maybe this is a little too deep of a blog post, but it is important for me to decide what I want to make of myself.
I am trying to be brave and start something, and just try it to see if it can be successful. I haven’t decided what, because I dabble in way too many different things. What can I say? I just like so many different things, and I think that’s okay. I don’t want to stop doing that ever. That is a part of who I am.
I just want to let go of this fear & try something, really try. If only we had more hours in the day, then I wouldn’t be so overwhelmed, and I could probably be able to take all 10 different paths. Hmphhhh. First world problems. Lets get real though, I would probably still be in this overwhelmed mess with just longer hours in the day.
At the end of the day though, rest assured I am already at my happiest. I am married to my best friend, and he is at my side. We will have hard times, I am currently trying to figure out who I am, but we will be happy. That is one thing I am certain of. I do have so much in my life to be grateful for.
At the end of the day though, rest assured I am already at my happiest. I am married to my best friend, and he is at my side. We will have hard times, I am currently trying to figure out who I am, but we will be happy. That is one thing I am certain of. I do have so much in my life to be grateful for.
On a lighter note, I hope I can keep this lovely plant alive. I really like it being in my apartment.